words on this pandemic.

2 weeks at home, walking towards 3 even, isn't this picture perfect heaven for a common high school senior who's been beaten down by exhaustion on a daily basis? I thought it was. This was what i've been secretly hoping to happen in the back of my heart, i just didn't think it was going to come true. First couple of days was decent, days were passing as fast as turning a page of a book, but now the days are longer just as my distance with common civilization.

I feel like i have this responsibility to actually talk about the pandemic every time i talk about this "work from home" system. In all honesty, i hardly read any articles, i know the bare minimum about this pandemic that we're going through. Essentially i read the case development from time to time along with the do's and don't because in my understanding, the virus most likely won't show any symptoms in my body but i could well be a carrier of this virus to people who have less defensive immune system than i do. My family and friends keep sending me essential articles regarding this issue and most of those blow this out of proportions, a beacon of worry for the people. Doesn't mean there aren't actual, informative articles out there though, that is not what i'm saying. This pandemic has put people into perception, looking back and thinking through stuff we usually won't give a second thought. A time of reflection this is. I can't really talk about the virus itself as i, myself, fear of it also thus i rely on people at the house to update me on such news. Another reason why i fear of talking about it is that the sources are so vulnerable to hoax that would incite terror and fright in people. Instead of talking about the virus, i would like to take this time to remind the basic and often socialized safety regulations during this pandemic.
1. Wash your hand according to the approved steps with soap and water or use an alcohol based hand sanitizer.
2. Limit going out as much as possible.
3. If you do have to go out, take a shower as soon as you get home.
4. Exercise at home along with 15 minute of sun exposure every day.
5. keeping a safe distance from others when you pray or shop.

This work-from-home system is working for most, myself included, but i know some people who find this extremely inefficient and better off unapplied. Others might have a less developed sense of self discipline and control thus they might find it hard to be apart of this system on a daily basis yet responsibility doesn't quite shift so easily. There are still work to do, papers to write, and errands to run. All that has to be done digitally, with a high risk of misunderstanding for those with a less-than-mediocre communication skills. Yet we still do it because school and work doesn't pause when the world does, both amazing yet cruel at the same time. However, it is better than actually going to the work place with a high risk of exposure to the virus. There are still workplaces that demand people to wake up at 5 to go to their workplace, moreover there are workplaces that has their employees to leave without pay meaning they will be on a break at home without getting any salary. For me that would be the cruelest policy, because even though we're not commuting to work or buying lunch outside, we still need basic household items to buy that requires money. To be clear, i don't really have a definite understanding of the working world just yet, i'm still a student after all so i do try to keep my head opened for that particular topic.

For me, personally, this "quarantine" period has taken a toll on me in ways i didn't expect, some are good and some are bad. My entire family has the privilege of working from home, whilst still getting the amount of money we need to get by here at home. Me and my brother are also privileged enough to be able to do this from-home-learning system (this article is also a form of task fulfillment of this system). We both don't know how long this system will be extended, how long does this system need to be applied, how long is it until we can go back to our norm? Scratch that, this is our new norm. This has been going on for a couple weeks, we are getting used to it by now. As a senior, this marks the end of my journey as a high school student. With the national exam cancelled, i have no responsibility to physically attend school anymore (except for certain events) and truthfully, i don't know how i feel about that. I keep saying to myself that this is the time where i should be enjoying my last days in class, times that i will never get back, good times that i've been having for the past 3 years but i feel like i could never get enough of. I want to blame someone but i couldn't, because to be quite fair, there is no one to blame.

This period has made me realize how much people mean to me, how much longing i can take. I miss going out, it was something i do every day of the week and now that things change, the table was flipping itself. Missing my loved ones however, nearly drove me insane. The need to see them, hug them, talk to them, activities that i perceived as trivial somehow turns into such a glorified right. But for now it's just a closet dream, tucked away in the back drawer, as we wait for all this to end and sadly, i don't think it'll blow over anytime soon.

Stay safe everyone!
Much luck, Audi
p.s here are some pictures that manifests that productive stay at home vibes!